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Outbreak Monkeys Unite!

So the whole house has been passing around and alternating between a fairly low-key cold and a terrible respiratory infection or flu. Charlie went to the doctor yesterday and has a minor ear infection. He’s now on amoxicillan, which is a relief to me since he’s got the youngest and most vulnerable immune system. Bastian’s coughing was pretty bad when he woke up and I had all but decided he was staying home… until he had some breakfast and some juice and the cough subsided quite a bit. He was chasing Charlie around the living room laughing when we decided at the last minute that he could ride to school with his dad. He wasn’t very happy about that, of course, but he’s already missed a couple of days this month due to coughing or low-grade fevers and I’m tired of being the paranoid mom. He also told me yesterday that he “forgot” to bring home his report card two days in a row.

Now he is my son, so it’s possible that he’s just forgetting. It’s also possible that he’s afraid of what it will say. All of his academic career, however, Sebastian has made above average grades. I’m not really concerned about the grading so much as the teacher’s comments which usually say something like “pay more attention in class” or “follow instructions and work on organization skills”. The thing that amuses me about these comments is that they are almost identical to the ones I recieved as a kid alongside my above average grades. He’s still ahead of his class in reading comprehension by a significant margin, and gets excellent grades on all his math and science homework.

I feel so much better than I have the last four days, but because I’ve hardly eaten in the time I’ve been sick I feel extremely disoriented. I missed dinner last night, and I don’t recall eating lunch either. I’m pretty sure I had a bowl of shredded wheat for breakfast yesterday. This morning I woke up at 1:30 when Mike came to bed, and then again at 2:45, 3:30, 5:25, and finally gave up on pretending to be unconscious at about 6:15. Having awoken without the respiratory issues or coughing from the day before I decided to cook breakfast for the family, but six scrambled eggs and the last of our bacon later there wasn’t enough for everyone… so I really need some lunch. I feel as if I’m Robitrippin’ right now, but I haven’t even taken the Mucinex we have in the linen closet.

Maybe I should get some food and write later… this should be fun to read when I’m in my right mind.

Wasting time on Facebook?

Choose Me!

Choose Me!

Maybe it’s not such a waste. I’ve been looking around for ways to diversify my online presence, and finally I’ve discovered a justification for spending all morning on the computer tweaking my FB and this site instead of doing dishes or cleaning! My savior, a website called SocialVibe, takes advantage of our browsing these social networking sites and blogs and turns it into charitable donations by utilizing sponsors such as CoffeeMate who donate to the charity I’ve chosen when readers click my posting and contribute a comment or donation to the cause. It’s free (just by entering a note or adding a comment on the site you’re donating -like an adsense kind of thing) and allows you to make a difference in the lives of school kids.  Click the picture on the right (my son, who attends 2nd grade in Illinois) to contribute.

During the month of October there’s a contest called the Social Media Challenge -to see which blogs can contribute the most to help low-income classrooms. I want to WIN, and it’s not just because I have a 2nd grader and a two year old who will also eventually be attending a school in Illinois (where I’ve specified my donations should be sent). If you click the picture of Bastian, any donations or participation grants me points toward the contest.  Did you know the average school teacher spends $500-$700 a year out of pocket and still our kids go without a lot of the tools they could put to good use? Teachers can go to this site, post requests for anything from a small collection of books for a library classroom to a field trip or equipment. Considering the daily advances in technology in this day and age, and the ease with which most grade-school aged kids pick up on all of it -they need our help providing it! Check out this video shown at a convention to encourage schoolteachers to utilize technology, and school districts to provide it.

The links in this post lead to the sponsor (CoffeeMate) who will donate money to DonorsChoose whenever you enter a cup of confidence for Dress for Success. Yesterday I tried out my links, and it’s actually the least time-consuming thing I’ve ever attempted as far as generating revenue online for a cause. When you go to the SocialVibe, your “cup of confidendce” (fewer characters than a Twitter posting, even) is added to their flash ad for the charity. This program helps disadvantaged women get into the workforce with confidence and appropriate business attire. People may think of clothing as being relatively trivial when it comes to holding down a decent job, but these are probably people who’ve never had to go months at a time unable to buy new clothes.  It is pretty difficult to perform well on the job when you’re self-conscious about your appearance. You can’t get a job in a corporate environment on a fast food income, and you certainly can’t wear the same clothes! Trust me, what you wear makes a big difference in the workplace and in how your superiors view you… unless you’re a blogger. But that’s why I’m posting about this! Please help me to Make Every Cup Count.

Now don’t get me wrong… yesterday I did manage to keep up with dishes, get the lightbulb in the fridge to start working after being without it for amost two years, AND I got the stove cleaned out… here are my before and after pics. I didn’t contribute ALL my time yesterday to the computer… but today I’m still here, trying to get back on the domestic track.

So, anyway, check out the button on the right if you have ten or twenty seconds to spare. Just click it and it’ll ask you for a comment or message of about one sentence. Just that little contribution can make a big difference to this charity -because you’re looking at that sponsor’s program while you do it… Ultimately, I’ve chosen to support DonorsChoose.org through this SocialVibe button. Everytime you contribute to the sponsor charity (CoffeeMate’s Dress For Success) they will donate money to Illinois School Kids through DonorsChoose. So EVERYBODY wins -and that makes surfing the web and abandoning my IRL responsibilities worthwhile. Now I just hope my husband doesn’t read this. *wink*

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Dooky Breezes

I think the movie “Weekend at Bernie’s” sucked ass.

That being said, it’s been a while since I posted. Things have been as usual -strange, hectic, constantly changing. Sebastian is teething (molars) and has been crapping liquid stuff again. He’s got a horrible diaper rash, and I sure hope he gets these teeth in soon. I try to let him run without a diaper for a little bit at a time, so the skin can get air and heal… But he has been known to pee right where he’s standing.

ON a lighter note, he went in the toilet last week. Since then he hasn’t managed to pull it off… but he’s definately interested in the toilet seat I bought for him.

Feeling a bit lonely lately… Beltane is always a struggle for me. The celebration of the “Lord and Lady” getting together after the long winter… mating season essentially begins. People everywhere are getting out and finding one another. As usual, I’m resisting the urge to seem completely desperate while feeling exactly that on the inside.

No… That’s not completely correct. Most of the time I’m fine with being alone. I realize that my happiness can’t be dependent on having someone else in my life. I guess it’s just tough being surrounded by so many couples and NOW that I’m 25, more and more of them are becoming MARRIED couples. Weddings are so depressing.

Finals are this week. That’s almost as depressing.

It’s cyclical…

Well, things are revolving as usual.

I finally spoke with my friends -the ones who I felt I was losing my connection with. I have to say, communication is so awesome. Since we spoke I feel so much better. We had a conversation and it just lifted this weight off of my shoulders, it was so nice to be heard and related to.

Anyway, now I’m just going to focus on my 20-25 page paper that’s due MONDAY! AH!

So I went to orientation at NIU and got enrolled in two classes… Things are working out! I’ve just got to keep it together academically for the rest of the semester. And I’ve been feeling lately like I haven’t given enough time to Sebastian. We need more play time.

It’s weird how I either feel bored and lonely or completely overwhelmed lately. I mean, I haven’t felt like I don’t have any friends in a long time -I’ve had alot of social interaction- but it was a group of friends that really do matter to me who were ‘too busy’. Now we’ve established that I need some quality time, too. So I have all these things I’ve been doing for the last several months to make up for my feelings of responsibility and restriction -and I haven’t been spending the quality time with Sebastian that HE needs.

We’re definately going to be spending afternoons together from now on. We’ve gone to the park a few times and he’s ridden his bike outside several times as well these last two weeks. Still, he seems to be dealing with pain of some type (I think he’s got a molar coming in) and is somewhat fussy lately. This drives me nuts, because he tends to be whiney and crying before he really tries to tell me what he wants. Whining makes me feel like I’m going INSANE. I don’t know what it is, but it just drives me crazy. I have to fight down this rage after he whines constantly for a period of time, which varies depending on what it is he wants and several other factors.

Hopefully I’ll manage to get this juggling act in balance so that everyone’s happy -including me. Mostly, though, I want Sebastian to be happy and know that he’s loved. Okay, it’s late and I’m getting sappy…

Four Day Weekend!

I have to work tonight, but other than that I’m in for a long weekend. Hopefully I’ll get some work done, as well as some loafing.

I’m really tired because I was “out” last night. Heh…

Anyway, I’m feeling a little heartsick again today. Sebastian has to go with his Godmother tonight while I’m working, and I’m usually a little uncomfortable at their house. I guess it’ll just continue until someone breaks down. I hate this feeling. Being exhausted makes it even worse.

Got a take-home exam for honors, but it’s only five pages. Actually, I think it may be kind of fun… but who gives essay exams over Easter break? Geez.

I’m really excited because Monday is my orientation date at NIU. I’m going to sign up for classes and everything. I’m so close! Hee hee!

Sebastian has learned how to open doors (twisting the doorknob and everything) and when he can’t get it himself, he will say “Open”. He’s so intense sometimes, it’s really cute. Either way, I have to go potty.

This one’s for Oberon

Adam kept telling me he wanted a picture of Sebastian that would display just how cute and evil he can look.

It happened at the park on my birthday. I got this picture of him running toward me on the playground bridge-thingy, and not only are his eyes demon red (like the terminator) but he’s got this mischevious grin on his face. CUTE!!

Here you go, Adam!

It’s been a while..

Well things have been, to say the least, hectic lately.

I wasted my entire spring break. This isn’t to say that I feel relaxation is a waste of time -quite the contrary- but because I knew I had things to do and procrastinated, all the time I spent doing nothing important was tainted by the knowledge that I was in for a helluva lot of work.

So Saturday night I played a board game with friends and then at about 3 am popped a couple of ephedra-containing stay-awake pills. I stayed up writing until about 5 am, at which point I went home and tried unsuccessfully to doze off before my son woke up at 6:30. Sunday morning I’m not sure what I accomplished, if anything, but I did clean my car inside and out and put my new seat covers on. Then I went to work and drove from 6-10 (on no sleep) and when I got off I went to Denny’s with my laptop and continued writing my essays. I finished the last one Monday morning (after about 4 hours of restless sleep) and e-mailed the finished product to my Prof about 3 minutes before the deadline.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I still didn’t get any sleep until Monday night at about 10:30 when I decided that it was imperative.

I feel much better today, having made-up this afternoon the mid-term I didn’t realize I was skipping yesterday at noon, and all I have left now is the Latin translations I was assigned over break. I can do those tonight in lieu of a good night’s sleep. I really need to get on the ball. I can’t believe I had an entire week to get caught up and only managed to get myself even more behind.

On a lighter note, Bastian is the coolest baby ever. He’s talking and recognizing alot of things lately. Yesterday I took him to Fazoli’s for dinner and another baby around his age came in. This kid was not talking, and apparently didn’t want to eat because he threw spaghetti noodles about five feet from the table. Sebatian, who had been waving to this child unsuccessfully before this point and smiling, watched the tantrum and then became quiet a moment. He looked up at me and, while pointing at the spaghetti on the floor, solemnly said “mess”. He nodded and very seriously repeated himself. It was the cutest thing ever. He knows how upset I get when he intentionally makes a mess, and he’s learned the word pretty well.

Witch Hunter Robin

So I’m watching cartoons with my bud and it’s a fun night. Spring break offically starts for me at 12:50 pm on Friday. I can’t wait!

I got off work tonight and it just felt so good to sit down. It’s been awhile since I had that satisfying feeling… When you’ve worked and you know you’ve earned a moment of relaxation.

Life is slowly creeping back into my days… The weather has remained warmish -at least comfortable enough that I haven’t worn my winter coat in weeks. Delivering pizza nights has really been good for me: I love being out in the night. When it starts to really warm up I get positively ecstatic. This time of year really makes me appreciate just being tangible. Feeling the air against my skin and such… I really think when my Digital Camera comes I’m going to take alot more pictures. I find scenes all the time that just appeal to me.

Sebastian is getting so tall. He can already reach things on the kitchen counter (where I usually put things I don’t want him to get a hold of) with ease. I put a screwdriver up there, because I didn’t want him playing with it, and as soon as a turned around he had it again.

I’ve started my dream journal back up. It’s kind of cool -I often wake up without remembering any dreams at all. All it really takes to start dreaming again, though, is to say to yourself “I’m going to dream tonight and I’m going to remember it”. It’s sounds ridiculously simple, but it worked!

I’ve also started meditating again. I always mean to meditate daily and just don’t stick to it. It’s been a few days now and I’ve been good so far. I just have to find the right time.

I guess there’s really nothing deep for me to write about at the moment. Things are good. Spring is coming.

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON!

I – FEEL – HAPPY! Think I’ll go for a walk…

God… Sebastian has been passing liquid out his booty this morning and it is one of the most disgusting things ever. I’ve heard like four of his quiet little farty noises, and each time I check his diaper the water line has risen -but I don’t want to change him till it’s all out. I’ll give it another minute.

SO, now that the grossness is taken care of, I FEEL GREAT! Once again, events have relieved the stress that former events were causing me. This endless cycle of crap/relief is just spinning lately. I think I worry to much about some things.

Anyway, I guess it’s time to change someone’s butt, and get him some electrolytes so he doesn’t get all de-hydrated from the dookie volcano. Yummy imagery, eh?